Your love is just a lie'-'

Wednesday, October 31

WEDNESDAY

woke up at 9.30 tdy?

ate mee as breakfast.

den went to central to buy stuffs.

met waysing at hub at 11plus?

tt was early! trng starts at 3 haha

went ave10 buy things den went home

get changed and go for trng.
started with lobbing with wenjia and linda

den coach came

do warm up, run run run

den played alternate match?

hit once den get out of the court

first pair with mf den donut den tianning

DONUT HIT MY FOREHEAD! OUCH

I SEE STARS , A SUDDEN SHOCK

after tt it was alright ailttle headache

i played till so sucky ..

match again, with huimin and tianning

nearly lost. den brenda and solomon

lost :( den coach pair mf with celine

I FELT THE DANGER.

FEAR ROSE IN ME. IM AFRAID.

being replaced, i haf lost him , i dowan to

lose anything anymore. please.

den coach let me pair with mf and play with

wenjia and linda, i felt tt i din play much is mf

im very scared. i hate this feeling.

den he asked wenjia train my lobbing and smashing.

i know i suck at it. i wish to be gd too!

den do PT kua-ing our legs along three courts

leg pain but it helps

den coach talked to us ..

i was so damn scared to confront me.

trng ended . donut and ZH gave us names!

LOL! haha .they are surrounded by gals and being beaten

HEHE. lols. den me and wenjia went j8 .

to our two world place hehe. but it doesnt seem so tdy-.-

i cried when i walked home:/

Xian whr u sleep sp early! pig la

charlene thanks for listening me out

sorry tt our first time talking is started soo......

im lost

i felt pathetic

i hate this feeling

i need you but whr are you?

faded///

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

7:12:00 AM

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Tuesday, October 30

TUESDAY

woke up at 10plus i guessed?
went down to buy eggs and stuffs..
then cook mee eat den headed to little india
to find my dad:) the trip is long
everytime i will panic whr to alight lols!
haha den reached there copy account..
COPY COPY COPY ...
at night liao .alot bangalas.... long queue O.o
BUSY BUSY BUSY.
10 plus den went home. bathe le
den i was here. my bro told me tdy in the mrn
5.30am got a gal called my hse no. finding me
speaking very softly. LOL! who will tt be?
prank call ? haha if whoever knows pls let me know:)
its way too early in the mrn lor.
wondering who will it be hmmm. lols
mayb someone dream talk and dial my hse no.? LOL!

NO CALLING.

he's jus a fcuking dumbass.

heartless freak move aside.

tt bai chi, are u saying urself? ha.

~~guys are fucktards.~~

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

8:44:00 AM

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Monday, October 29

MONDAY

hmm. woke up at 10plus tdy?
ate cornflakes, sweets while watching shinchan
fell asleep after i ate X)
my life is getting boring:(
woke up omg is 2 alrd
get changed and ready den went for training at 3
me and mf played with wenjia and linda
start: do drills is tiring der lor
den rest, den played match with nigel & daryl
amazingly we won, something must be wrong with them tdy:/
after tt got a tight 'scolding' frm coach
more sort of advising i guess?
the sha qi is strong :/
my tears nearly flow out i felt very sad,
i cant do my part for the team or perhaps
im causing the team to lose i felt bad,
like he said train till nowstill cant lobb properly,
use more strength must be steady,
smash moremust hit for an aim ,
wats the advantage for tt shot or else
the one point is hard to getafter his advising,
i tried to correct my mistake but the outcome
is i ended up playing lousy'er'coach is looking! :'(
i felt stress! i cried in the toilet:'(
i still cant play well though i tried very hard
i felt like giving up, i tink i cantin sec one,
the one day i went for training i wanted to quit!
i stayed till now becos of the encouraging seniors and team mates.
THANKYOU SO MUCH.maybe im jus extra and
not needed .did some stroking and matches
did foot works and stretchingtraining finally ended
went to j8 with wenjia and meifengeat at B1, the food is so nice!
yummy..bao luo wan xiang:D
then mf went home first and me and wenjia went to lvl3
and chit-chat till 9plus =Xour secret.. shhhh. lols:)then went ntuc,
SUSHI HALF PRICE.BUY BUY BUY:)

i hate the feeling of waiting

it sucks, is like ur heart cant be at ease?

where are you when i needed you?

i felt pathetic tdy. no one to confront

its terrible, haf u spared a thought for me?

i felt alone, unwanted and abandoned.

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

9:14:00 AM

YYY

Sunday, October 28

SUNDAY

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Receiptionist:
Hang on- I think I see the problem...
He's not coming back...

Im spending everyday differently since the day u went away
woke up late in the mrn .went to find shirly.went hub walk
then met shereen, andre and his bro
then went library to return book
started to rain heng gt bring umbrella
have to learn to be independent. told blacky lols
then went sheng siong den went find andre they all play pool
its funny der lor..haha
played with andre ,his bro and shirly b4 i go little india
took 130 there, bangala is alot der lo=.=
said by old woman tt i wear till very wat .
was like -.-!!! lame shit. then i was here.

everything is so different
u will nv understand how
much hurt u had caused.
u are enjoying freedom isnt it
he isnt coming back
he's jus nt tt into you

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

7:22:00 PM

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hmmm .went out with my GF ,shirly

played 2hrs plus der pool till 5plus
den went home take stuffs for jie
den headed to amk hub queue for Fish & Co
meanwhile i saw mr neo walk past haha
he went for a jog? haha
jie finally came she went walk walk
my turn le dunno whr she den i go damn inside
and sit first haha. first time to Fish & Co.
kuku sia haha
ordered fried Calamari(NICE!)
terriyaki salmon
seafood platter for two
full full:) foot the bill
the waitress take out PDA ask jie
do survey -.-! is high class der lo
i tot it will be paper & pen :/
den they give us sweets:)
then we walk almost the whole amk hub
buy clothes, shoes....
den heard one auntie say
faster faster ntuc wan close liao lols
it was like 9? -.- we walked till hub want
close liao den walked home.

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

8:13:00 AM

YYY

Friday, October 26

a different day

Slept early in the mrn 5am .woke up at 10.30 lols
watch tv ,ate lunch.. fall asleep till 2
den received wenjia's call
went to find her at causeway

4.22 played badminton at RP:) RP is big :O

haha played me and wj screamed were liked dowan let the shuttle drop haha keep running in the court. met gandang's fren, Gary:)

gandang said smth mean :'( knew tt he din did it on purpose
then played till 6.15
then went to bathe and headed to bishan to find guang, nick and jinwei .went to city hall .
wanted to find smth to eat
ran ard marina square like mad lols
dunno wat to eat. new york2 long queue
and ex. finally decided to go Han's
we ran ard to find Han's
dunno took us how long=.=
starving..finally found it! yea dinner time
i ordered grilled pork chop
guang ordered chicken smth
jw ordered fish n chip
nick ordered beef hor fun
the soup and garlic bread is nice!
our food came! we ate and talked
when we ate half way
guang realised tt he was mine and i was eating his. ahhh
we are slow der lo haha
exchanged half den continue eating
the peach is nice too!
after tt we anyhow walked
we went to find ben and jerry
its another hard-to-find place arghh
finally found then i ate the cherry der
haha quite nice:)
anyhow walked and took train to marina bay
and back to amk den walked home
bath le and i was here.

NICE TO MEET YOU, GARY:)

SORRY FOR BEING LATE =X

THANKS DIRECTORY! HAHA

it helped us to find our dinner!

THANKS TO NICK AND GUANG

help me take shoebag:)

"DANIEL WU" you very rude and mean nehx

haha jkjk. cheer up kaes! learn frm setbacks:)

you haf our support! always:D

thanks guys,had fun tdy:)

i smiled tdy...i laughed out loud

but im crying inside

every now and then im

putting a smile on my face

its torturing to force myself to

smile when im nt even happy

things are different without u .

u will nv understand how

much hurt u haf caused

a scar is all u haf left for me.

its ugly and scary.
running away frm reality

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

9:31:00 AM

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Thursday, October 25

last day of schl

25OCT07

assembly: that was a long one.
retirement of ms thoo and mr nagor

prize-giving: it was a long one

ms thoo, mr nagor, mr ang, mr chong,

mrs lim were invited to sing:)

return to class. were asked to clean classroom

RECESS: ate guo tiao and drank ice lemon tea with hwee

get back report slip then report book

cleared locker, got renewal form frm GO with hwee

argghhs, i asked mr koh, mrs ong for
graph paper. NOBODY give me :(
they all forgotten :/

got answer sheet frm mrs ong for the class with hwee

12.10 went AVT for mrs poh's briefing
then went back to class. hwee need go videoing with mr koh

hahas.went with her.then went off with guang

then went back to IR again LOL.

the videoing ends at ard 2. nick,hwee, me waited for him

in class then we talked crap :/

haha then went mac eat then go ntuc then went home.

amazingly , i took 8mins to reach my hse frm amk MRT. lols

my holidays are here!!! but hor lots of homeworks laaa

=.= hai . being za by them. LOL! bo bian mahhh

LASTLY:

CONGRATS TO HUEYZHEN, JOSEPH, KIMBERLEY,

LINH, JENNY, JOLEEN :D

HAPPY RETIREMENT MS THOO & MR NAGOR(:

THANKS TO THE TEACHERS OF 3/7'07

YOU'LL ARE GREAT!

really sad tt mrs ong wun be teaching us next year:(

3/7'07 ROCKS x) ENJOY UR HOLIDAYS!

nothing can amend my broken heart

you liar, i hate you. please die

its hard being nice. suffering frm setbacks

its just a mistake. a big one.i was blinded.

are you an alien or smth? sure tt u aint a human

perphaps u're a beast ha

EMO ROCKS!

hatred ~~guys are fucktards~~

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

11:12:00 AM

YYY

The day before, guang, hwee, nick, xuan, kim and me went bugis!
i boguht my bag and shades:)
guang is rich der lor . frm his head to toe everything was new cool!

JOSEPH, YOU LOOK GREAT! :D
haha i felt tt im exagerrating haha. im like black frm head to toe.
we were like taking photos after assembly for an hour plus X)

FUN! but the later part is boring and saddening haix.

PHOTOS!! STORY BEGINS:

OUR FIRST PHOTO!

me and hwee with nick

THE BLACK

me and nick didi:)

me and liting:)

me and zhengyang:]

<<>

da ge is in DANGER! lols

the long leg lao da

hei se hui

me and hwee(:

me X)

guang the da ge

hwee the da jie

ZY the head

wearing jo's cardigans

looks funny=p

i got no idea wats he's doing

but i tink its damn funny

david lao da reading

reader's digest COOL

theres a killer behind him

wheres his bodyguards?

LOL! im LAME der lor.

dont take it too seriously.

JUST KIDDING:D

LOVES:

THE 2007 HEI SE HUI

THANKS FOR THE MEMORY!
I'll miss ya all! harts <3

take care guys!

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

9:07:00 AM

YYY

Sunday 21Oct met amanda!

we were asked to take a foto

which shows us how we look like when we are 60

and if u are a smoker or a non-smoker.

and got a ZAC voucher haha

OMG the foto is terrible! yuck

bought my heels den took bus with her to her grandma hse

den we were like sending each other crossing roads

Endless haha!

AMANDA LIM! I WILL MISS YOU! :D

CYA SOON!

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

8:39:00 AM

YYY

Tuesday, October 16

school starts_l_

things were different today

no morning calls or msgs

phone is too quiet

theres NO MORE

i felt weird .

the feeling is like a sense of emptiness in me

haf the tourism course 8am -1pm

haf a break at ard 9plus

den recess at 10.15

den continue till 1

shahril,aisyah,sokhwee,shiyun and me in a grp

did a plan for a japanese tt is coming s'pore for 2 days

lols. damn funny keep taking cab during the trip.

end up our grp is the most expensive OMG

$822 LOL!

went hub with hwee den went home .

then i was here. lols!

hope tmr will be better! :)

emptiness in me

the cry of my heart.

yeah im smiling

but inside; im dying

~~guys are fucktards~~

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

11:38:00 PM

YYY

Monday, October 15

MONDAY

woke up early in the mrn meet ah pek

he late! hmphs.ah pek walk v.slow

hehex. finally know how to fold heart!

=P sorry i very slow.

den went home.

revise with yingen and zhihow they all at mos

tired nt enuf sleep .yawns

i almost fall asleep there =.=

4plus my old woman called and qns me.

WTF 4PM! late meh?!

using an unpleasant tone. IRRITATING!

SHE SPOILT MY MOOD!

den go walkwalk at hub with panda den went back

5.30 elroy came went play pool

i was eagered to go play pool BEFORE 4PM

went there. sian zhi puang. quite sucky tdy

no MOOD.so went home first.

was questioned again.

old woman: where u go ?

me: ask fren hw

old woman: with who?

me: yingen and gang

old woman: why? diff skool wat

me: SO? cant ar frens wat

old woman: mrn ask till nite ar.you better dun

do bad things outside

HELLO? WAT SHE EXPECT?

me: silent

old woman: DONT HAF HIM DEN GO OUT FIND OTHERS

me: whats ur problem, frens cant ar.

rather than i stay at home and think till i go mad

at least with frens i will be cheerful

old woman: u chose him urself nt i ask u one

WTF! Is she my mother?

she is like saying i flirt. nv study.

i alrd very sad and she said that to me!

whats her problem ask hw nt study?

EXAMS WERE OVER!

WHAT SHE WANT?

im forcing myself to smile and stay cheerful like

da lu ren said.

but this is cruel . why is god torturing me lidat?

im nt eating, waiting to faint or die :D

i ate nothing much and i haf shit den cant come out =X

moral of the story:

never ever let adults get into ur love life,

you will suffer and usually

theres no good ending.

they will nv understand how u feel

my life is in a mess now all thanks to u

and you are living happily ,

you will get it back!

im fading away each day

awaiting the day tt i rly break down

i wished to leave everything behind

and just walk off

carrying a heavy heart.

i hate you.

~~guys are fucktards~~

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

5:12:00 AM

YYY

Sunday, October 14

diff sunday

woke up at 9plus
watched doraemon :D

met blacky ard 11 for lunch

hadnt eaten since ytd afternoon =X

wa i can tahan!

ate at food junction

den went mac drink milkshake!

den gt ppl ask us to vote lols

eunice and mei hua haha

den dicky came

they did homework ,i did nth

i did blacky's Olvl maths cos he slack lols

can revise:D haha

dicky taught me THANKS:D

mac damn cold,shivers..

blacky so mean! keep suan me and step my leg!

his excuse was i tot is the pole -.-

den went popular

'forced' blacky to help me ask abt m2 card HAHA

den took 22.i alight first

dicky at seragoon

blacky at TAMPINES muhahaha

HAPPY TRAVELLING!

den went to find my GF

den go bbt shop den saw some ppl

-.- den went my gf hse and i was here(:

i learnt that you aint impt, friends are more.

i gained three frens. thanks.

SPECIAL THANKS TO:

JULIA, EUGENE aka da lu ren,

BLACKY, DICKY AND MY GF aka shirly:D

i told myself to be strong

to forget and forgive

be happy and smile!

i could live without him.

guys are fucktards.

facade

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

5:00:00 AM

YYY

Saturday, October 13

SAD DAY

was waken up at 7.50

go hub der fairprice take things for my mum

-.- ard 8.30. was on my way hm

met itto and popo.WONG ITTO

CALLED ME AUNTIE!

which i din heard, is popo say der lols

wadeva..

reach home, on tv. watch watch watch

eat noodles, watch aiyoyo laoshi

online. bathe,went to bugis

met shirly downstairs she wanted to tagg along

den went up with her to change clothes

den she say want go out with bf.

shua me huh. rain le la.

den her bf nt free.-.-

we set off to HUB

den to bugis meet nini there

she sounded angry .SORRY:/

ALOT OF PEOPLE!

den me and shirly anyhow walk .

go junction find nini,den she went street lols

den nth to do .take133 hm

shirly chased the bus den it ran off. so ps:p

nvm it came quite fast.

we alight at seragoon,anyhow walk round round again

take 853 home .lols!

NIKO: IM SORRY IF I IRRITATED YOU:(

SHIRLY:IM SORRY TAT IM EMO

THE FEELING OF SEEING COUPLES HAPPILY SHOPPING

TGT ISNT GOOD. IT SUCKS AND HURTS.

IT MADE ME THINK OF YOU

I SERIOUSLY MISS YOU

ITS MY FAULT. IM SORRY.

PLS DONT TREAT ME THIS WAY

I HATE IT!

I NEED YOU!

i had no more tears to shed,

pls dont torture me like this

it hurts alot. i need you.

my soul 's fading away slowly each day

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

3:49:00 AM

YYY

Friday, October 12

friday

FRIDAY!

woke up around 10.

watch kids central .

sians. den go out hub buy things,

saw cheehon lols.

den take bus22 to seragoon find shirly

i received a bad news frm jospeh.

theres Emaths test next fri . wth.

sians. waited for shirly

den go mac sit sit.

emo de yao si

den go ktv.

dunno when say wan go tgt till now

finally went! :)

sing till super high! to forget the unhappiness.

but i was sad and terrible inside.

adrain and fren came. lol.

den i nv sing le, cos paisehh-.-

ssb came, we are lucky der lor. HA

not ur fault la adrain and fren :)

den sing till 3plus.raining :(

walked to mac sit awhile den

take bus to hub anyhow walk till 5

den take bus home with shirly.

THANKYOU SHIRLY GF

for pei-ing me tdy. smile more! (:

lets go tgt again next time!

emptiness in me, only u can fill up

i need you, im vulnerable

faded soul

~~bitches sucks~~

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

3:43:00 AM

YYY

Wednesday, October 10

thursday 11-10-07

2nd day of marking days .

dunno hows my papers :/

IM ROTTING AT HOME!

DYING OF BOREDOM!

SUPER BORING.

watch kids central , use com

eat, drink ,sleep .

my life is boring with ur absence.

can someone kill me, im helpless!

haix.. Things jus din go well

why is god torturing me like this?

wat haf i done wrong to deserve this?

can someone tell me?

think the rest of my days will be boring like ytd.

pray tat it wun be worse.

i felt an emptiness in me

the feeling isnt good at all

its torturing,its taking my life.

please dont treat me this way

i cant take it.

Imissyou.

faded soul

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

9:33:00 PM

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Tuesday, October 9

SAY NO TO EXAMS!

PHEW! finally finish all the exams.

went to watch voice of murderer with

guang, nick and zy. i fall asleep =P

the show is quite slow 0ooops.

overall still okay lo(:

~~EXAMS!!~~

i can sleep all day to kick away my panda eyes le!

wait for results =X OMG

not so stress ler.but theres still some stuffs

driving me nuts. haix

hahas. den go play like mad. hope i could be happy:D

i hate exams! so stressful . cruelty had came to me

so suddenly and harshly , i nearly couldnt take it.

i wanna eat eat eat AND shop shop shop AND

play play play AND sleep sleep sleep! all troubles move aside!

im bored of living..

i cant sleep cuz my pillow is too wet :'(

~~fucker.i hate you why do u lie to me. why?! wat haf i~~

~~done wrong tt make me deserve this?~~

~~if it was me, will you wait? will you?~~

~~you haf hurt me too much.i hate you to the core.~~

~~you heartless freak! FUCK OFF! PLEASE DIE.~~

~~GUYS ARE FUCKTARDS!~~

gott this from an e-mail : lols

PISCES - The Dreamer Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative

and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive.

Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic.

Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

i find no reason for me live happily, everything had changed,

all different . nothing worth for me to live on .

broken love

♥ The cry of my heart -Yeah im smiling:D but im dying inside

2:40:00 AM

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